Writing A Book And Why I Chose To Tell My Story
I think the idea all sparked from a comment my mother made a few years back. She said something like, “you should write a book someday with all the stuff you’ve been through.” At the time, I shrugged it off, but the thought of it wouldn’t leave my mind. Whenever something can’t leave my mind, I almost always end up doing it. I can’t help it. It’s how my brain is wired. Sure enough, not long after that, I decided, “I’m going to write a book!” However, I had a fairly significant problem. I had absolutely no idea just how hard writing a book is. I think I lasted a few days at most, and then started trimming the length down. Eventually, I gave up. That was probably about three years ago. Still, the thought has rested in the back of my mind, and then a few months ago, it resurfaced like a ball of fire. That’s when I knew, it’s time.
The advertising company I started from scratch over 4 years ago, Marketing Mayor, has begun to hit a substantial growth stride over the past six months. It’s pretty crazy to look at where the company started, in a bedroom, to where it is now, on the cusp of flourishing. I’m not positive, but I would guess success stories that extreme don’t pop up everyday. Somehow, the team and I, we made it over the hump. This isn’t to say we won’t have a ton of hurdles to continue clearing to reach our ultimate destination. At this point, I am now confident in believing myself to be successful in my career and as an entrepreneur. To be perfectly honest, I don’t think I totally believed I was truly successful in my first attempt at writing a book. Probably because I wasn’t. That most definitely held me back. Now, I feel I am experienced enough to tell a story that could be potentially meaningful to others and hopefully inspire many to keep pushing.
The second part to this whole equation of writing a book about myself is I have to reveal pretty much my entire life, both good and bad. I am opening myself up to the world and I assure you, it’s not easy. I’m worried about what my girlfriend’s (future wife, if I don’t mess it up) family might think when I peel back the curtain. I’m scared of how my family and friends will feel. I mean, they obviously know some things, but they are going to get the whole can of worms with this book. I can only hope they don’t think less of me. That is the risk I have to take to accomplish this.
If you’re asking why they might think less of me, it’s because I didn’t always make the right decisions. Actually, I probably rarely made the right decision. I wasn’t always the legitimate business and family guy that I am now. After slinging candy bars and operating an online eBay store with video games in middle school, guess what I graduated to as an entrepreneur when high school and college arrived? Drugs. Lots of them. In fact, I couldn’t get enough of them. I loved selling them and I absolutely loved the numbers and the business aspect of it. “Well, if I get this amount, I will only pay X amount per bag, and then I can charge this amount!” I was naturally drawn to the riskiness and entrepreneurial aspects of it. Accompanying the drug world is crazy risks, ups and downs, and things most people probably never experience in their lives. I was downright terrified in some situations. Let’s put it this way, I never saw a gun until I entered into this realm, then I saw a lot of them. I saw a few other things that aren’t exactly regular occurrences.
They might think less of me because I was a selfish, bratty, stuck in my own ways, ignorant, when are you finally going to grow up millennial. It was always about me. I didn’t see things clearly most of the time. I lived in a fog. People told me that, but I never listened (shocker!). Apparently, I knew it all at age 20-something. I made so many questionable decisions that I don’t even know where to start. I’d love to get into a few of the stories right now, but I will save it for the book. At the end of the day, we all make mistakes, and I learned from all of them to become the current version of me. I am hoping people judge me off of who I am today and not the past.
So, again, why did I decide to write a book about my life? Why did I decide to reveal everything I could have easily kept a secret and left in the past? Because it’s my turn to give back. This is going to be my way of hopefully helping thousands of people. With this book, I hope to inspire the countless number of age 18-34’s (millennials) who simply don’t know what they want to do with their lives (this book is targeted to younger people, but I ultimately hope to inspire people of all ages through my stories of perseverance). They are lost. Five years ago, I was completely broke with no idea who I would become. I survived. I made it. I am confident that others experiencing the same thing I went through will also survive. Then eventually, they will thrive! I want to assure those people they are on their way. I want to give them a first-hand story, a real life experience and not their parents in their ear. I want them to know it’s completely normal to be leaving high school and have no idea what you want to do “when you grow up.” It’s perfectly acceptable to be in college and realize a few years in, this major isn’t for me, I need to switch or take a break from school. It’s absolutely OK for someone who quit college halfway through to go back in their late 20’s, 30’s, or even older, and finish your degree. On the contrary, it’s fine to not even go to college at all!!! You see, everyone’s path is different. Everyone has a different calling in life. It’s important that you find your calling and then you nurture it. I truly believe that is what leads a person to true happiness in a career or in life.
Lastly, I am writing a book, this book, to inspire. If you’re down and out in your life, you can always get back up and start fighting. If you’re alive, you haven’t been completely knocked out yet. I want to let people know I was in the dumps too, and I made it out, and they can too. Of course, telling people it’s going to be okay is one way to express support, but telling them a story of something that actually happened could possibly mean more. Often times it needs to come from the inside of the individual that is struggling. I am hoping this book is something those people can turn to as a source of inspiration, because I’ve been there, done that, and I landed on my feet.
Ultimately, I hope by revealing my deep dark demons to the world, I can help so many people overcome theirs.